A Crappy Power Animal?
On Sunday morning, I skipped the dawn ritual. I caught a bit of breakfast, and headed down to the stone circle (late) and got a sunny patch for the rite Ian and Liafal were leading. In this rite, we were to find our spirit ally and talk or bring him/her back. Before the visualization had even started, I was able to see what I would find as my spirit guide: millions and millions of cockroaches swarmed into the circle and around, and I watched them with great interest as they moved as one creature.
We wandered for a while, talking, meeting other animals, and generally raising hell. We played a joke on a bear, pretended to be someone else's spirit animal (we let 'em know in the end), and sang a rousing rendition of "We Are the Champions" to a group of tortises who had challenged us to a game of volleyball. Eventually we came back.
We were invited to share our experiences, and to talk about our Sprit Guide if we were so moved. As we went around the circle, I was struck by all the cool totems everyone else had, and was a bit embarrassed by mine. A few mentioned eagles, hawks, or other birds, one mentioned a stag, a couple of wolves surfaced, and Nam mentioned a monkey, and spilled the water all over her neighbor in the circle. Finally, when it came to me, I called the cockroach by his common name, not his saintly name, saying: "Cockroach, for telling me why I couldn't have a cool totem."
It was a wonderfully powerful experience. Profound and comical, and I'm not ashamed to admit that such a powerful experience can be brought about in so simple a way.
Or maybe I'm making a totem out of a cockroach? Eh, I've seen worse :)